Move away from your hometown

 




Move away from your hometown


When growing up you are typically around the same people and doing the same things up until you graduate. My high school experience was awful, the best day of my high school life was when I graduated and left. Of course, I had some good times and met some alright people, but my hometown wasn't for me. Constantly was known because of my family, judged because of who my family was, and talked about because my last name was an easy conversation topic for the small-minded people on the 'mountain'. Everyone literally knows anyone. I'd have teachers ask me "How is ____?" like how do I even respond to that?  I grew up being super defensive, you kind of have to when you feel like you always are in fight or flight mode. It got so exhausting feeling like I couldn't just be known for myself. When I graduated I knew change was needed in my life. I was super negative, rude, and hated everything around me. 

When I moved I relocated to a big city, or at least big to me because where I am from we have one traffic light. It was scary and I was alone a lot. I fell into this hole of feeling like I was abandoning my family and it sucked the life out of me. I hated feeling like I was going off on my own and was leaving what I did love behind. I felt like I was selfish for wanting to pursue my life. I remember being so bent out of shape about it I couldn't sleep, I would literally just lay in bed and my thoughts would tumble. I would go to class and talk to a few people but my social life was terrible. I felt like I made all the wrong choices.

Months passed and I got in touch with my doctor to help with my depression/anxiety. I am so thankful I reached out to my doctor and actually became semi-consistent with my life. It's like a whole world opened up for me. I started becoming closer with some people in my class, I go visit new places around, and I just enjoy the new life and place that I have. I realized that moving out of my hometown was the best thing I could have ever done. I am so thankful every day I took this scary step and moved. I enjoy all the time I spend with the few great people I have met and I enjoy my alone time.

I stopped being so defensive and started becoming a very good version of myself that I am so proud of! Being around people that are positive and acceptable to YOU was the best thing that's happened to me.

I actually enjoy going back to my hometown sometimes. I value my time with friends, family, and the area a lot more than I ever did. 

I recommend that if you are from a small town, move away! Or at least travel and see all the other places that the world has to offer you. There are so many other people you will have the pleasure of meeting! Just because you come from a small town does not mean you are limited to that area. Make it a place to visit, and find your happy place. 


Disclaimer: Everyone is different and I do not expect everyone to relate. These are just my personal experiences and some things that help me. I have linked a national hotline below that is free and confidential for individuals or families that are struggling with mental disorders.



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